i used to be full of love - it flowed through my veins in droves. it pumped my heart, made me warm. but over time, the pool of red lessened. my heart beat slower, i got colder. there were bouts where the blood surged, but they were all flukes. once the red becomes a pink, you can't saturate again. colors don't deepen over time. too many factors cause them to wash out. i used to be full of love, but over time, over the course of my life thus far, it lessened. it becomes more rare. i give it out less.